Move along

Sometimes in life the hardest thing to do is also the right thing to do. Sometimes in life I make really stupid decisons and hurt people who are really close to me. This week I realized both of these things.

Sometimes I wish the town that birthed me would let me go. Although I always claim to hate this town, I have had the fondest memories here. Driving home today from dropping my ex-girlfriend off was probably one of the hardest drives I have ever had. The pain from the break-up and the constant landmarks flying by my windows almost made me pull over as I began to sob. Every building, every sight, every road reminds me of the memories I had with her. I remember in high school driving on 224 past Wal-Mart and coming to the crest hill and being able to see all the lights of the town and thinking "we own this city." Now, several years later, I look back at my childhood and desperately want it back. Even though high school might not be considered childhood to some, it is to me. Since coming to college, I have grown and learned so much, so much that it seems high school life was like the life of child. Shannen was a part of that life, and I honestly don't have any fonder memories than I did with her.

I know God is going to be with us both as we try our best to get through this break-up. The biggest challenge is moving past being boyfriend and girlfriend and moving to being best friends, a transition that I know will be a hard but a transition I know that we will be able to do.



God, I pray that you would be with me and that your Holy Spirit would comfort me and guide me in this time of trial.


"I will never leave nor forsake you."