Back to the same old...

I hate screwing up. And i hate habits of screwing up. Pray that I don't screw up anymore.

Back to the same old...

I have screwing up. And i hate habits of screwing up. Pray that I don't screw up anymore.

Move along

Sometimes in life the hardest thing to do is also the right thing to do. Sometimes in life I make really stupid decisons and hurt people who are really close to me. This week I realized both of these things.

Sometimes I wish the town that birthed me would let me go. Although I always claim to hate this town, I have had the fondest memories here. Driving home today from dropping my ex-girlfriend off was probably one of the hardest drives I have ever had. The pain from the break-up and the constant landmarks flying by my windows almost made me pull over as I began to sob. Every building, every sight, every road reminds me of the memories I had with her. I remember in high school driving on 224 past Wal-Mart and coming to the crest hill and being able to see all the lights of the town and thinking "we own this city." Now, several years later, I look back at my childhood and desperately want it back. Even though high school might not be considered childhood to some, it is to me. Since coming to college, I have grown and learned so much, so much that it seems high school life was like the life of child. Shannen was a part of that life, and I honestly don't have any fonder memories than I did with her.

I know God is going to be with us both as we try our best to get through this break-up. The biggest challenge is moving past being boyfriend and girlfriend and moving to being best friends, a transition that I know will be a hard but a transition I know that we will be able to do.



God, I pray that you would be with me and that your Holy Spirit would comfort me and guide me in this time of trial.


"I will never leave nor forsake you."

Sigh...

Memories:

sitting in the car on a warm summer night after youth group and just talking
swimming with everyone after a softball game
youth group and youth retreats
Ryan Lombardo's house
you always claiming Gwen Stefani was actually a good artist
Family gatherings
Christmas time
Driving
Looking forward to when you would come back from trips
The north hill
First meeting you
Wendy's
going to parking garage and watching the sun set
those high school dances, my entire high school life at that
the office
just talking
being together




Thank You.